Well, Ladies and Gents…this IS gonna Rune your day for sure.
This is a tricky Rune and one with great insight.
SO, take a deep breath or a shot of tequila and lets take a gander on the dark side….
Nauthiz
CONSTRAINT
NECESSITY
PAIN
"The necessity of learning to deal with severe constraint is the lesson of Nauthiz. This Rune represents the obstacles we create for ourselves as well as those we encounter in the world around us. Both can be equally difficult to handle.
The role of Nauthiz is to identify our shadow, our dark or repressed side, places where growth has been stunted, resulting in weaknesses that are often projected onto others. DON’T TAKE THIS WORLD PERSONALLY. Rune is saying: work with the shadow, examine what it is in your nature that attracts hardship or misfortune in your life. When at last you can look upon the Rune of Constraint with a smile, you will recognize the troubles, denials and setbacks of life as your teachers, guides and allies.
The need for restraint is unquestionable here. Drawing this Rune indicates that there may will be holdups and reasons to reconsider your plans carefully. Clearly, there is work to be done on yourself. So, take it on with good humor and show perseverance.
This is a time to pay off old debts, to restore, if not harmony, at least balance. So mend, restore, redress: When fisherman can’t go to sea they repair nets. Let the constraints of the time serve you in righting your relationship to your Self. Be mindful that rectification must come before progress. And as always, consider the uses of adversity."
Well….thats not all. This rune was pulled in reverse…so, take another breath…and here we go!
Reversed
"As part of the Cycle of Initiation, Nauthiz is the great teacher disguised as the bringer of pain and limitation. It has been said that only at the moment of greatest darkness do we become aware of the light within and come to recognize the true creative power of the self.
When something within you is disowned, that which is disowned wreaks havoc. A cleansing is required here; in undertaking it, you will fund a will and strengthen character. Begin with what is most difficult and precede to that which is easy. Or, conversely, begin with what is easy and proceed to that which is most difficult. Either way, remembering that "suffering" in its original sense, merely meant "undergoing."
Thus you are required to undergo the dark side of your passage and bring it into the light. Controlling your anger, restraining your impulses, keeping your faith firm–all this is at issue here. Modesty and good temper are essential at such a challenging time."
You still with me?
Barely? Thats OK..this can be a challenging Rune for folks.
When I pulled the Rune and read the text, I thought…wow, this is so up for me and up for many of my clients and friends.
Here is how it has been playing out in my little life lately! I was cruzin right along, feeling healthy…building up my strength… feeling so good about how much I had been healing. Feeling really confident, getting things done, movin’ and a shakin’…and maybe, just maybe, feeling a little cocky… then out of the blue, BAM…last week I started hurting again.
So, I spent a day or so, in full compassion…saying things like:
"It’s OK this will pass, it always does."
or
"Stay with this Lynne, your body is wise and knows what its doing."
or
"Your body is working very hard, lets just rest and take it easy."
Blah
Blah
Blah
By day three of pretty severe pain….I stopped talking to friends, canceled clients and withdrew into movie land.
Oh, and during the first few days, I was totally lying about how I was feeling to myself, my fella and friends:
"Oh, its not as bad as it used to be…I am sure I will feel better tomorrow!"
Meanwhile…the pain was so bad that I was sweating and the hair on my arms was standing up! Way to be a lying sack of potatoes! Talk about denial!
My compassion for myself left the building.
My thoughts went more like this:
"Lynne, you totally suck! All this inner work you have been doing…what a load of crap!"
"Your not healing…you will never get better!"
Then, I started yelling at the Universe:
"Stupid universe…what the hell are you doing out there? You totally suck"
Then I started yelling at my non-physical friends:
"Hey guides and angels…what the hell are you guys doing? Get off your butts and help me out here! I mean COME ON!!!!!"
After I exhausted myself with my mini temper tantrum, I decided to stop yelling at the universe (though that did feel pretty good for a bit!). I took a bunch of slow, deep breaths…did a ton of tapping and settled down.
My shadow around this is that when I am in pain for too many days in a row, I start judging myself very ruthlessly. I completely forget that I am worthy…just cuz. I tend to attach worthiness to my ability to perform my job, my chores, my writing, my whatever…connecting it to what I DO…rather than who I BE.
Its like, once I start hurting, I get this strange sort of amnesia…I forget that I am lovable, and fabulous and hilarious…and compassionate and WORTHY! And worst of all, I stop being in love with ME. I treat myself terrible…I would never treat anyone as badly as I treat myself!
Sometimes I can connect with the light and with wisdom. Other times, not so much! This health blip really shoves me up against the wall and beats the shit out of me….until I come back to myself. Once I come back to me, I may be in pain…but, I am feeling kindness and love towards myself. Not always easy to reach this place. I still have many conditions that I impose on myself that determine whether I am worth self love or not! Pretty damned brutal indeed!
How about you?
Where in your inner world, are you denying your shadow?
What is in your nature that attracts hardship?
What have you disowned within yourself, that is wreaking havoc in your life?
This is an optimal time to visit these places and do some healing work on them~
Bye for now!
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