Okay…so, I have been writing this last week about beliefs.

And…man oh man– do I got a doozie!

I believe that I suck at technology! Trust me, I got tons of proof.

Here is a just a small piece of the proof:

After deciding that I did not need to take any more ibuprofen (800 MG)…besides I was almost out of it…I have been slowly hurting more and more every day. At first, it was just a little bit of cramping…Down There . Then there was more cramping…Down There . And last night…I woke up to a ton of cramping Down There. The worst pain is where my right ovary used to be…is this phantom ovary pain?????

I dunno…but, what ever it is….it hurts!!!!

And because I am who I am …I saved my last ibuprofen for when the pain became really bad . Well, today…I reached that point. In fact, if I had any more percocet…I would have taken a handful! But no such luck. As I took my last huge horse pill, I noticed that I had 2 more refills. 2 MORE REFILLS!!!!

I quickly called the pharmacy.

And because I am who I am…I have been thinking that I should be much better by now. I mean…COME ON!!! It has been 2 months and 3 days since my hysterectomy! I shouldn’t need any more pain medication!!! Well, something snapped in my brain when I saw "2 refills." All of a sudden, I felt like maybe I was doing better than I thought. I mean…I am NOT going to NEED 2 more refills…one will do me just fine:) Right?

And because I am who I am…I thought, well, since I can barely walk right now (the pain is shooting down my leg and up into my chest), I decided to get something done. And that something? Exploring the finer points of using Word Press. Word Press is this new blog program that I am using. The new technological blog program that I am using!

I got out my little laptop pillow. Got my laptop. Got all comfy and cozy with a cup of tea. Took a nice deep breath…and tried to log in. Hmmmmmm…couldn’t figure that out. After I somehow found a way on..I took a deep breath again. After about an hour…I graduated to drinking a cup of coffee…which I drank to be polite…I really just wanted to main-line it…maybe THAT would help my brain work better. An hour later…I moved on to wine.

It is 3 hours later…and I still don’t understand it. I don’t understand how to find other bloggers. I don’t understand what the hell a widget is. I don’t understand how to add new thingies to my blog. I don’t understand any of it. The thing is…at some point…I have GOT to understand this stuff. This technological stuff. This horrible…nightmarish stuff! I have to face this boogey monster and make some sense out of it.

So…I have a TON of proof that I suck at technology.

A complete inability to learn this stuff does not change the fact that I have to learn this stuff!!!!

Maybe, I can go bang my head on the wall….I am good at that!

Maybe I can go back to it tomorrow.

Maybe I can get a new brain!!!

Maybe I can tap on it: "Even though I totally suck at wordpress…or any technology…I accept myself anyway….at least I am trying too!"

I think that there is a tiny possible chance that the reason this may be so frustrating…is because I have been hurting for a bit too long.

Hmmmmmmmm…it’s possible!

I guess maybe…

just maybe…I ought to shut this thing off…sorry Ruby… and go watch "Design Star ."

Might just be a good idea…