Hi there!   Hope this post finds you doing okie dokie:)

As an EFT Practitioner, I work with tons of folks who are dealing with some hard core anxiety.  EFT is an amazing tool to use on anxiety.  Anyway, I thought that I would share a bit of my own story around anxiety…actually that is too polite…it wasn’t anxiety…it was sheer panic…like the kind you get when your breath gets sucked out of your chest and you think you are gonna die.  Yep!  That is what it has been like for me.

As a kid, doing anything in front of my class was very scary…you know…those reports that you would have to read in front of the class?  I even had trouble reading out loud in class.  Since those were things that were done a lot, I was always nervous at school. And on top of that the nuns were not the kindest of babes.  I also had a mom that was a bit edgy herself.  The few times I told her how scared I was to go to school she said, in that annoyed voice of hers, “DON”T be so RID-ic-uloussssss!!!!!”

Well, that didn’t help.  I was left feeling anxious AND ridiculous.

Now, let’s jump ahead a bunch of years.  I am working as a parenting educator in a drug treatment program for women just coming out of prison.  I had to do groups 3 times a week.  When I first took the job, I told them that I had “a bit” of anxiety around doing public speaking.  They said that once I did it a few times, I would be fine.  Just fine.

Well, I wasn’t.

Every single group left me feeling wasted from all the internal panic.  My adrenals felt fried.  I did this job for almost 3 years.

Then my husband died.  Suddenly.  I found his body.  That was really bad for me.  My anxiety exploded.  I had 3 panic attacks all of them while I was driving in my car. Once alone.  Twice with my kids in the car.

I decided to move to the redwoods with my boys.  Found a cute little house on a winding redwood road.  We knew no one there.  Perfect.  The redwoods did a lot to quiet my system.  I was fried.  I did a lot of body work during that first year.  Rosenwork.  Reiki.  Hypnotherapy.  Took long beach walks.  Walked in the woods alone.  Trying to heal.  Trying to calm my inner panic down.

I found a job running a counseling program in a high school.  I loved this work.  I supported students, parents and teachers.  All one on one.  My supervisor said that it would be great if I could start doing groups.  Shit.  Groups.

I decided that it was time to try and heal this anxiety once and for all.  I had lived with it since I was little and I wanted to be free to do groups or not.  I wanted it to be a choice of free will….rather than a choice to avoid anxiety.  So, I went back to school and trained to become a hypnotherapist.  During the whole program, my focus was on healing the anxiety.  Well, it helped…a little.  But, not enough.

I tried to do a few groups.  Nope. The panic and anxiety was still too intense for me to deal with.  It was better than it had been…but, I just couldn’t do it.  I told my supervisor what was going on.  He was very kind.  Suggested that I might want to go “talk” to someone about the anxiety.  I told him that I tried that a bunch of different times through out the years.  Told him that I was doing hypnotherapy, rosenwork and reiki…oh and yoga and walks and hikes…and..and…and.

Move ahead some more years.  Remarried. My fella and I have been together for 13…maybe 14 years (not so good with dates and numbers!)…and we still love each other to reeses pieces.  We have a good thing here!  As long as he lives…all is well with us:)

We move to Colorado.

I guess my anxiety decided to move with me.  Bummer.

More opportunities show up for me.

Some one calls me to speak at a conference.  Nope. Can’t handle the anxiety.

People want me to do groups, trainings, etc. Nope.

I become a Life Coach.  This way I get to work at home, on the phone.  I won’t have to be out there where all the anxiety is.

Then one day, after hanging up the phone, saying “no” to yet another public speaking opportunity…I started looking for other tools to help with healing the anxiety.  I found EFT.  I started tapping.  I loved it.  I started feeling more internally quiet.  I was able to sit still. I was able to be internally peaceful…not all the time…but often enough.  I used it for a bunch of different things and got lots and lots of relief.  Things started shifting. I decided to get trained so that I could offer this to my coaching clients.

Move ahead a few years…today.  I am sitting here talking to you and feeling internally at peace.  I rarely feel any anxiety.  When it does show up, I tap it away.  I am getting ready to launch an internet radio show on March 2nd.  Big step for me.  I am excited and nervous.  But, I don’t feel like I am going to die.  I can tap during the show if I need to.  I KNOW that I will be able to do it.  I wouldn’t have known this back then.

I just wanted you to know.

Living with anxiety sucks.  I know.   I lived with it for many many years….since I could remember it was always there.  Now it’s not.

If you suffer from any kind of anxiety…start tappin’~  It really works.  It has worked for me and my clients.

Amazing stuff!

Signed:  Internally Peaceful At Last~