Hi there!

It’s another gorgeous day here in Colorado…clear crisp skies.  Birds are a chirpin’…bunnies are a hoppin’…and I am sittin here freakin’ out!

I did a practice radio show with my friend Christine yesterday.  She sounded so calm and together.  Her voice was smooth, her words clear…and her sentences made sense.

Not me.

My “s’s” sounded very lispy and my voice did not sound calm.  In fact, it had a sort of shutter to it!  My words sort of made sense and when I laughed it was close to a cackle.


Doing this radio show is an edge.  Or a cliff…which I have fallen off of.  Or maybe it’s more like a bleeding edge.  Whatever ya wanna call it…this decision to do this is a huge hurtle for me.  I have been working to get over this anxiety/fear since I was young.  We are talking a long long long long long time! And here I am again…braving this cliff.

The desire to get over this fear is huge for me. Freedom is one of my top values…in fact, it is my top value.  And this whole “scared to do anything public” really imposes too much restraint to my freedom loving self.  I want to be free to CHOOSE whether I do something or not, from the place of freedom…not from the place of avoidance of fear.

So, dear brilliant readers,  what is your edge?

What is the experience that you have always wanted but you have been afraid of?

Many times these desires are hiding a bit.  They are secrets that we keep from ourselves because the perceived risk seems to high.

So…what is your secret edge?

Look to the big things and the little things.  The mind blowing experiences and the small experiences.

You know that you have an edge when part of you really wants this and another part of you is screaming “no flippin way!!!!”  It is a big ol’ paradox!

Have fun freakin out!

Signed:  Cliff Jumper in Colorado

4 Responses to “That ol’ cliff edge~”

  1. Well, I hate the sound of my own voice.

    I wonder if you tried doing part of your practice standing? Standing might allow you to breathe easier and take away some of the shakiness from your voice.

    Anyway, keep practicing. You’ll get better very quickly!

  2. Great idea Mr peg…I am gonna give that a try:) I thought I might take a handful of valium too. Hmmmmmm wonder where I can get some??

  3. Freedom is one of my top values…in fact, it is my top value.

    Hey, me too! No wonder we get along so great!

    Yay you for becoming free from this fear!!

  4. Hey Jenny…well, I ain’t free from the fear yet. Hopefully, it will just skidaddle the more I do the radio show. Crossing my fingers!

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