I had a nice little meditation this morning…sitting on my comfy chair…outside in the sun.  It was one of those meditations where I became so quiet, that a butterfly landed on my leg and a goddess came down from above and shared some possibilities to a  question that I had been meditating on.  As I was receiving all of these super groovy gifts, I noticed that there was some internal drifting happening.

I was  surprised and excited that a swallowtail had landed on my leg…cuz that is super cool and groovy…and must mean something profound!  Right????

Another part of my mind was trying to document the fabulous words of wisdom being shared by this ethereal being…along with noticing what a cool gown the goddess babe was wearing.  Which lead me to wonder where she got that dress?  I loved the fabric!  I could make some awesome curtains for our bedroom with that fabric!!

And another part of me was noticing that the neighbors dogs had been barking for awhile prompting the human who lives there to come outside and start yelling at them to “shut the hell up!!!”  (more…)

Recently, a lovely woman that I have had the honor of knowing died of complications due to lung cancer.  When I heard the news, I cried and felt a strong wave of sadness.  “Another good one bites the dust” is what I thought.  I was glad for her that she was able to head out … I know she was suffering.  I was also aware of how hard it was for her to leave her children, husband and friends.

That was the part that really got the tears going.

Can you imagine having to say goodbye to your children?  To your partner?  To your friends?

While I was jumping into this very sad image…my son stopped by.  (more…)

Since last writing in my very painful blog…well, actually my blog isn’t painful per say…it’s  been painful writing in the damned thing…

Where was I????

Oh ya…painful…writing…blog…

So here is how things have been going:

The last few weeks, I wake up, grab a bowl of coffee, read my emails, look at my schedule to see who I get to tap with, and then sit and stare blankly at my computer screen waiting for some inspiration…something….anything. (more…)

Somewhere between here and there, it got lost.

It ain’t under there.

It’s not behind that.

It’s not up top.

It’s not down under.

It ain’t here.

It’s like it never was here.

It has completely disappeared. (more…)

I was hangin out with my fella last night…we were reading the paper and playing online.

I was getting ready to read the book review section when my fella started talking.

He started talking about this fender guitar that he had when he was a young pumpkindoodle and the amp that he loved.  I looked up.  Put the paper down.  And put on my “I am listening” face.  The problem is…it was a lie.

When he starts talking about this…I start to drift…

I can’t help it.

Cuz I KNOW…

He will soon be talking about tubes.

Amp tubes. (more…)

Okay.

I know this is so weird.

I haven’t written anything about the holidays…and today it ain’t gonna happen either.

Instead I am going to entertain you with a funny little story of how I finally heard my first porn message…ever.  You see, I have never seen porn (well, that’s not true.  I saw one porn movie in college during a sexuality class.  Something about a woman who needed her copier fixed).  And once by accident, I ran into some online porn when I was doing a search on ‘big pickles.’ Don’t ask.

But, that is really is not much exposure. I still see myself as a porn virgin of a sort!

So…on with the story (more…)